Post-quake Day whatever, still depressed :|

[fencer_x]

Waiting around at Narita Airport for my flight to leave. I'm still feeling really conflicted about the whole thing and not looking forward to a 12+ hour flight back to the states...but there's nothing that can be done about it now :|

I've never had to leave Japan despite not wanting to, so I've never realized how really frustrating it is and how angry it makes me that I have to choose between staying in the city that's my home and potentially my own safety. I suspect it would be a little easier to stomach if I were absolutely sure this was for my safety, that staying would be infinitely more dangerous than going home. And geez, it's only for 10 days! (well, right now) It's not like I'm even missing anything big (I'll be missing Romeo and Juliet next weekend...but it was starting to look like it was just going to be boys in drag and I didn't want to really see that anyways :<)

(there are little children next to me who are obviously halves because they look foreign as anything with blond hair and blue eyes but they are speaking fluent Japanese and I HATE THEM SO. *jealously seethes*)

Anyways, yes... I just really hate this whole thing. I miss my family, but I miss Japan even more right now--and I'm not even on the plane yet :< I definitely am not ready to go back, I'm realizing... And while it's good that my family won't have to worry anymore about me during this crisis, I just...really wish I didn't have to go ;____;

*siiiiiiiiiigh*

Comments

[mitsukesyu.livejournal.com]

You are exactly expressing how I feel. Although I haven't been in Japan that long I really don't want to leave. So I keep on fighting of the people who tell me to go home immediately. People seriousely need to chill. I mean of course everything that happened is bad, but they makle it sound like Japan is going to disappear within the next couple of days.
And even though I'm in a fairly safe place now after leaving Tokyo earlier than I wanted to, they still won't shut up. I mean I know they are just concerned, but stop creating panic for no reason. It's good to be cautious, but don't overreact...it's not gonna help anyone *sigh*...
Sorry that I used your post to get that off of my chest, but seriousely people have pushed me to the level of mental and physical exhaustion, cuz they would keep bombarding me with messages and phone calls on my cellphone even at 3-4 in the morning and I'm really tired right now.

Anyway...I hope you'll have a safe and good flight back home and enjoy your stay with your family...and I'm sure Japan will be fine and you'll be able to come back...just see it as a little "out of plan" vacation.
And another Tenimyu is coming up soon...so let's hope that we'll be able to go and watch it and that the situation in Japan has stabilized at least a little.
Let's pray and help wherever we can in the meantime.

[viherkyn.livejournal.com]

It seems that the situation in Fukushima is getting worse so I think it's a good thing you're leaving Tokyo for a while. If something happens, you can think that you're one less person for the officials to worry about and if nothing happens, well, then you took a spontaneous vacation.

Have a safe flight.

[das-vika.livejournal.com]

I feel you there. Not much more to say than that.

[analineblue.livejournal.com]

Mou, yeah, I can definitely understand why you'd feel that way. :( I hope the flight goes quickly though, and that once you're home, you'll feel a little better? I think I'd try to think of it as just...some extra time to spend with your family, time you wouldn't have had otherwise, rather than focusing on the leaving, you know? Maybe since you made this trip, another time you'll stay in Japan over a holiday or something, you know? (I like to rationalize things like that. ^_~) But yeah, I totally understand. ;__;

And I hope you feel better. <3