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fencer_xWaiting around at Narita Airport for my flight to leave. I'm still feeling really conflicted about the whole thing and not looking forward to a 12+ hour flight back to the states...but there's nothing that can be done about it now :|
I've never had to leave Japan despite not wanting to, so I've never realized how really frustrating it is and how angry it makes me that I have to choose between staying in the city that's my home and potentially my own safety. I suspect it would be a little easier to stomach if I were absolutely sure this was for my safety, that staying would be infinitely more dangerous than going home. And geez, it's only for 10 days! (well, right now) It's not like I'm even missing anything big (I'll be missing Romeo and Juliet next weekend...but it was starting to look like it was just going to be boys in drag and I didn't want to really see that anyways :<)
(there are little children next to me who are obviously halves because they look foreign as anything with blond hair and blue eyes but they are speaking fluent Japanese and I HATE THEM SO. *jealously seethes*)
Anyways, yes... I just really hate this whole thing. I miss my family, but I miss Japan even more right now--and I'm not even on the plane yet :< I definitely am not ready to go back, I'm realizing... And while it's good that my family won't have to worry anymore about me during this crisis, I just...really wish I didn't have to go ;____;
*siiiiiiiiiigh*
I've never had to leave Japan despite not wanting to, so I've never realized how really frustrating it is and how angry it makes me that I have to choose between staying in the city that's my home and potentially my own safety. I suspect it would be a little easier to stomach if I were absolutely sure this was for my safety, that staying would be infinitely more dangerous than going home. And geez, it's only for 10 days! (well, right now) It's not like I'm even missing anything big (I'll be missing Romeo and Juliet next weekend...but it was starting to look like it was just going to be boys in drag and I didn't want to really see that anyways :<)
(there are little children next to me who are obviously halves because they look foreign as anything with blond hair and blue eyes but they are speaking fluent Japanese and I HATE THEM SO. *jealously seethes*)
Anyways, yes... I just really hate this whole thing. I miss my family, but I miss Japan even more right now--and I'm not even on the plane yet :< I definitely am not ready to go back, I'm realizing... And while it's good that my family won't have to worry anymore about me during this crisis, I just...really wish I didn't have to go ;____;
*siiiiiiiiiigh*
