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fencer_x....the FUCK Nagayan?
When did it start, my being afraid to be adventurous?
When did it start, being comfortable with everything around me being the same?
When did it start, it being usual for me to deceive everyone?
When did it start...?
Of course I don't remember, or recall what started it. But I just realized it--that that's how it is--that's all.
When did I start writing this diary? I don't really care, actually, and even if I knew it wouldn't have any effect on future entries here.
Thank you for once again coming to read this weird diary. Anyways, Nagayama Takashi is going to write here, so please stick around.
I wake up.
I gargle.
I drink some soy milk.
I eat some yogurt--and not some sweet stuff, the good-for-you stuff.
But I also have some cheesecake and caramel chocolates. And of course these are sweet.
I go to change clothes. But I can't decide on what to wear. I stare at my clothes.
Black.
Gray.
Gray.
Black.
Gray.
They're different items of clothing but they all look the same.
Sometimes old people say that--that young people all look the same, that they've got no individuality, but that they're too opinionated.
And young people don't understand them, they're different -- so which is it?
I lock my door.
I go down the stairs. No elevator or escalator here--don't need them, as long as I've got two feet.
I check my mailbox. The people who pass out flyers have certainly done a good job. But I'll just toss out most of it.
Pii! PASMO sure is convenient. And the train's come at the perfect time; if I'd had to buy a ticket, I wouldn't have made it.
Everyone piles in. Sorry if my backpack's in the way.
Why aren't you crowding in further? The people in back can't get on that way. There's space further in, see?
But everyone's desperate to protect their personal space. I can understand that--everyone's like that.
I arrive at my location. I love my work--I really do. It give me a sense of purpose.
Huh? 'That's sad'? No way--I'm really happy on location. I laugh a lot. Why? Dunno. I'm happy because it's fun, of course. There's no real reason; it's fun, so I smile.
Otsukaresama deshita. Good work today.
I take a walk around town, just walking around. Mind if I take a break? The coffee I get is sweet.
After a little bit, my vision starts to get blurry. My eyelids start to droop and now my eyesight's really worrying me. I try to focus--the world around me is getting dim, and I can't control my posture. I move without calming down--sorry to those around me. Did I worry you?
Before I realize it, it's night. Guess I should head home then. It's chilly out, and I walk against the current of those heading towards the station.
Cell phones connect people. Waiting for the light to change. I wonder where they're all headed home to...?
The light turns green, everyone crosses. I wonder what would happen if it stayed red?
It's tough going up this hill, it always is--whether I'm in good form or bad.
I check my mailbox. The people who pass out flyers have certainly done a good job. But I'll just toss out most of it.
I unlock the door.
"I'm home."
I gargle.
When did it start? It doesn't matter. I don't have to be adventurous; it's okay if I'm comfortable with everything around me being the same. It's okay to deceive people...
When I write it out like that it doesn't seem to matter either way, really.
I'm torn on how I feel about this post... For one, I love the little insight into a "typical" day--it makes for more realistic fics, to be sure. And the idle comments he makes, like wondering why people don't shove in further in the trains so others can board is...so normal :P
But...wtf is this about deceiving people? I was with him for the "it's okay to not be adventurous" and "it's okay to be comfortable with the way things are" because it seems like an "it's okay to settle down (with your boyfriend of choice :D)" kind of statement. But deceiving? (there really is no other way to take 誤魔化す :/) Unless he's talking about people thinking he has this exciting life and actually it's pretty down to earth and normal and no he doesn't feel like breaking out of the box and whatnot? idgi...
When did it start, my being afraid to be adventurous?
When did it start, being comfortable with everything around me being the same?
When did it start, it being usual for me to deceive everyone?
When did it start...?
Of course I don't remember, or recall what started it. But I just realized it--that that's how it is--that's all.
When did I start writing this diary? I don't really care, actually, and even if I knew it wouldn't have any effect on future entries here.
Thank you for once again coming to read this weird diary. Anyways, Nagayama Takashi is going to write here, so please stick around.
I wake up.
I gargle.
I drink some soy milk.
I eat some yogurt--and not some sweet stuff, the good-for-you stuff.
But I also have some cheesecake and caramel chocolates. And of course these are sweet.
I go to change clothes. But I can't decide on what to wear. I stare at my clothes.
Black.
Gray.
Gray.
Black.
Gray.
They're different items of clothing but they all look the same.
Sometimes old people say that--that young people all look the same, that they've got no individuality, but that they're too opinionated.
And young people don't understand them, they're different -- so which is it?
I lock my door.
I go down the stairs. No elevator or escalator here--don't need them, as long as I've got two feet.
I check my mailbox. The people who pass out flyers have certainly done a good job. But I'll just toss out most of it.
Pii! PASMO sure is convenient. And the train's come at the perfect time; if I'd had to buy a ticket, I wouldn't have made it.
Everyone piles in. Sorry if my backpack's in the way.
Why aren't you crowding in further? The people in back can't get on that way. There's space further in, see?
But everyone's desperate to protect their personal space. I can understand that--everyone's like that.
I arrive at my location. I love my work--I really do. It give me a sense of purpose.
Huh? 'That's sad'? No way--I'm really happy on location. I laugh a lot. Why? Dunno. I'm happy because it's fun, of course. There's no real reason; it's fun, so I smile.
Otsukaresama deshita. Good work today.
I take a walk around town, just walking around. Mind if I take a break? The coffee I get is sweet.
After a little bit, my vision starts to get blurry. My eyelids start to droop and now my eyesight's really worrying me. I try to focus--the world around me is getting dim, and I can't control my posture. I move without calming down--sorry to those around me. Did I worry you?
Before I realize it, it's night. Guess I should head home then. It's chilly out, and I walk against the current of those heading towards the station.
Cell phones connect people. Waiting for the light to change. I wonder where they're all headed home to...?
The light turns green, everyone crosses. I wonder what would happen if it stayed red?
It's tough going up this hill, it always is--whether I'm in good form or bad.
I check my mailbox. The people who pass out flyers have certainly done a good job. But I'll just toss out most of it.
I unlock the door.
"I'm home."
I gargle.
When did it start? It doesn't matter. I don't have to be adventurous; it's okay if I'm comfortable with everything around me being the same. It's okay to deceive people...
When I write it out like that it doesn't seem to matter either way, really.
I'm torn on how I feel about this post... For one, I love the little insight into a "typical" day--it makes for more realistic fics, to be sure. And the idle comments he makes, like wondering why people don't shove in further in the trains so others can board is...so normal :P
But...wtf is this about deceiving people? I was with him for the "it's okay to not be adventurous" and "it's okay to be comfortable with the way things are" because it seems like an "it's okay to settle down (with your boyfriend of choice :D)" kind of statement. But deceiving? (there really is no other way to take 誤魔化す :/) Unless he's talking about people thinking he has this exciting life and actually it's pretty down to earth and normal and no he doesn't feel like breaking out of the box and whatnot? idgi...
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Date: 2010-04-16 06:04 am (UTC)Sounds like havy routine to me,what he's doing. No,Nagayan,you don't need to be adventurous but sometimes it's nice to change habits because it let's you into a whole different view. :)
And about deceiving people...does he do that actually? In which way,I wonder oO
Mh...that really leaves me thinking now...*sigh*
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Date: 2010-04-16 06:16 am (UTC)I have to say though... this entry, even in it's almost wtf-ness... it speaks of a world of content. He's not really worried about what his life is actually like - hell, he just about described verbatim a typical day for himself - and in sharing this with his fans he kind of burst that bubble of deceit, which really isn't so much deceitfulness but more the removed-ness that there is between someone in the business and their fans. We all would like and hope to really know the man, but really, the only people who know him are his family, close friends and managers. And even this entry doesn't really get us all that much closer to the man, but it does give a just a little glimpse of the person who is just like you and me, just a guy, working, living and enjoying his life, enjoying.
/thinky comment... because really... I shouldn't be thinking this much after 2am...
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Date: 2010-04-16 07:09 am (UTC)It might be just me being late to the party but it feels like Nagayan is opening up to the fans more than before.
Thank you for translating this though, it definitely gave me something to think about.
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Date: 2010-04-16 01:33 pm (UTC)ANYWAY. As for the deceiving people thing. I tend to read that as just...maybe the general level of deceit that goes into any one day? I mean, you get up, go to work, put on a happy face, don't say exactly what you're thinking 100% of the time because there are rules about politeness, that sort of thing? Or who knows, it could be something far deeper. XD; But to me, this whole thing seems very stream of consciousness, and so it seems like something like that is something that just came out--I mean, as a celebrity too, I'd imagine that there's even more of that feeling of "do these people really KNOW me" etc., right? So yeah... I think I see it like that.
..........Man, I could go on forever about pretty much every line of this and what I feel like it means. XD;;; But I won't~ XD But this just really... wow. *__*
And what strikes me through all of this too I think is how much this, to me, seems to jive with what we see of him on his blog. This is how it seems like his days go, right? And for me, I look at what he posts on a daily basis and always sort of feel like "what am I missing/not seeing?" but this makes me feel more like he really is trying to express himself pretty accurately through what he posts and what his life is like... you know? *__*
[/rambling] @_@